Change

Wednesday was the last day that i'll ever party with Stephy as she has just board the plane back to Glasgow this morning. We went to Redbox for her farewell party. This is the first time heading to Redbox after 2 years not being with them. Yes, i've notice, everyone has changed. Jene, not too much, Bridget not too much, Huilian not too much but Munlye and Geetmay a lot. Not as fun as before. Maybe it is becoz Geetmay wasn't feeling well that night so she didn't went hard out. But things are definitely different from the last time. Or was it just me? who wants us to stay the same way like how we used to partied?

Was i upset? was i mad? was i unhappy about the changes? Really, of course i'd wish that we would be like how we used to. I guess i've been anticipating this for quite sometime and still trying to accept the fact that everybody is going to have their own life sooner or later. Still, i couldn't help it but to wish we would be like how we used to. I would never forget the days we had. Miss it so much. I kept hugging everybody i see who are closed to me. Afraid don't know when is the next time that i'll ever see them again. So very afraid of not being able to hug them or kiss them lol..This few weeks had only been spending time with them and no others. I had the best time of my life i must say. Best Christmas, Best New Year's Eve despite the first few hours was crap. As long as they are around things are beautiful even if it's the simplest things.

I met up with this very ol' good friend of mine "Enzo", and to think that i was lost at every point of my life, he always manage to lift my hopes up again by advising me and reminding me the simple things in life. I don't like or want to say it out, but the connection between me and my best friend is very vague. I don't know how to put it into words but "vague" i guess can be use to describe how our relationship is. I never thought of letting this relationship or our bond go into the drain. But i am struggling for ways to re-connect us back together. You know i would never give us up but i just could not find ways to reach out to her like how i used to. Funny, this friend of mine said, you don' t have to try so hard. Just be there for her. That's all you need to do. Best friends need not say much because of the chemistry or how should i say, the bond/relationship for so many years, understanding each others thinking by gestures. It does make sense, just be there for her no matter what happens.

I can tell you that we still like the same things, we have almost close to having the same taste and everything. But of course, this two years, we've been apart, she went through somethings which i wasnt able to go through with her and same goes for me as well. She's really more introverted now compared before. I am less extroverted myself lol as well but not as hard out as she is. I guess to revive us back is to be there for her as simple as it is.