Uncapped thought IV

I to haerenga, ko a au i mahue pouri

Uncapped thoughts III

Let's see.......

I have so many things in mind but i am unable to word them all...

Step by step, here we go.

I'm in total rage because....

You called me a psychopath and telling me how possessive i am.

Here's the thing, you never realised the things that you said that can make me go apeshit!!

I can be a total bitch if you're asking for it.

I hate being called a psychopath just because of a guy? seriously....

and i do not appreciate either how possessive i am being.

Here i am lingering and thinking...

Maybe you are right. I don't know how i have turn into this ugly monster and i totally hate the fact that i am one now.

You're the only reason that i am being like that.

Now, how do i stop.....

All i was asking for is to just be beside you.

We used to be together every moment and now that you just move on like that,

Hey.....

I need time too. I am only human too to feel such a way.

I am so used to having you around and now that you are not around, of course things are different.

I know...

You said that maybe it will be good for us to be apart.

I think we are just not doing very well being apart.

But.......

I decided to take your advice and now it has turn me into this bitch.

I know i don't have the courage to say all this out whenever i am in front of you.

Sucks to be me!

I shall leave you alone or should i put it in another way.

Please don't call cause i need time to deal with things and pull myself together without you.

Yes....

I know you are doing pretty well.

Good on you!

But now it's my turn so spare me.

Please.....

Uncapped thoughts II

It is only when we are apart,

we realise so much around us and what we used to have.

I do not think that it is working out.

Everything is different.

The feeling we have for each other,

the way we speak, the way we touch,

the way we look at each other are forever change.

Is it one of your tactic to help yourself to move on better?

Because I feel totally smothered.

There are so many things i want to say but can't express it out.

Whenever i do, i just get cut off.

Sure..you know best....

You said you will change but no.

On the other side, you get all rights to judge others,

What irony!