Fear and inspired

I find myself constantly running away,

though every time i try very hard to find reasons to stay,

to be honest i am very tired.

The day before yesterday night was a weekend,

To those who doesn't know, which most doesn't,

I have a partner...well, not a very serious one....

He is not the perfect man within him or how should i put this,

Perfect on the outside but not in the inside.

A realist...a man with substance which is wot I've been looking for over the years but...

Yes....a but.....but not a very loving man.

I've been cooking up ways to leave but never did.

Never had the courage or should i say no solid reasons to.

After being with him for close to half a year, all i can say that he brings out the best of me like no other man can do.

Anyway, back to that night.

I realised the reason that i have been constantly running was because i'm afraid.

Afraid of committing to anything. The bruised that was left ages ago by i don't even know who anymore, has got me into being the now "ME".

Sad isn't it?...........

How did i succumb to this fear.

Afraid of being ditched and left alone, well..look at me now.

Ditched and left alone.

Well not literally. Hence, that explains the current relationship i am in now.

However, this man that i am seeing right now...guess wot? It's irony to say...

He made me realised life and pushing me towards stuff i want to do.

An inspiration....whenever i see him, he make me feel very inspired.

As time goes by, I then slowly discover myself.....

I am attracted to:

- Smart

-Articulate with speech

- Cocky

- Stylo

- Opinionated

All of the above mentioned are lethal. Extreme lethal to any women kind on earth.