Highest achievements for now!!

I woke up today and did some reflective......

I now realise how much i have missed out so many things in my life. I know i want to be someone useful and someone better. Who doesn't right!! i actually just realise that there were so many things i could have done to improve myself in the past to be someone whom i want to be today. I went like OMG, i could have been an awesome student back then. As i was rewinding my life back to high skewl days....There i was..i could have join so many clubs to make life more interesting and not to mention give myself a chance to experience leadership. What was i thinking at that time?!?! None of what i've just mentioned. I was pretty caught up wid the social life and ignored studies. Did i have a dream back then? Not really, but i do know what i want in future. Material wise. My biggest achievement is getting into IACT college, graduate with an advance diploma and highest achievement of all is doing my Bachelors in Auckland Uni Tech. I know this achievements like this to others are like peanuts. To me it is something that i have never thought of. Life in IACT really did make a difference in me. I'm not promoting them now but its true. IACT lecturers has thought me that :

"Nothing is impossible"
"It's never too late"

As i think back, i am glad that i have made the right choice in enrolling myself in IACT. The best thing ever happened to me and i get to meet really great people and great friends. Especially the one who's always dropping cough drops in my box LOL. For that 2 phrases of words has push me this far. I know what i've missed out and so i'm working on it now. I may not get back to the things i've missed but at least i know what i need to work on from now on . Step by step climbing up the stairs to reach for the stars.

Flirting Part:2

Hunger for knowledge.....

As i was bored to death waiting for people to get back to me after sending so many CVs out, i then came upon this book which my mom handed it to be before leaving K.L.

As i was reading i came across another subject on flirting.....This time is called

"FLIRTING WITH THE FORBIDDEN"

I find it very interesting. I didn't know that God has this subject on flirting too. What is this "FLIRTING WITH THE FORBIDDEN" means?!?!.....

There shall not be found you anyone,
who makes his son or daughter pass through the fire,
one who uses divination,
one who practices witchcraft,
or who interprets omens,
or a sorcerer,
or one who cast a spell,
or a medium,
or a spiritist,
or one who calls up the dead.
For whoever does this things are detestable to the Lord
Deuteronomy 18:10-12 NAS

Whoever has been interested in these kind of things will then meet the worse consequences of all time. Interest as in lusting for it, is bad. But if one has meditated and practice long enough, along comes the devil. This is not something anyone should be playing with.

I remembered my mom's warnings very well to avoid things like this. Even the simplest thing like palm reading or tarot cards reading in knowing your future is a danger.

I know life would not be easy. And so i rely on faith itself that i shall over come anything that comes in my way and i shall not give up on anything although i know i give things up easily when theres obstacles. If i am destined to be something i don't want to, i will fight it although I am very afraid of going through hard life. But let's face it, no matter what it is, everything is hard. Nothing is easy that's how people learn and grow. I believe i have every right to change my life as long as i work on it. But in all ways, acknowledge God himself that shall help me.

Psalm 32:8
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go.
I will guide you with my eyes.

Proverbs 3:5,6
5-Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding
6-In all your ways acknowledge Him, and he shall direct your paths.

From the above that is quoted from the Bible which i have fail to do so. And i admit, i have been crossing my principles in life numerous times. Consequences of it, has made me realise this today. If i were to stick to what i have set from last time, things would be so much different. But then again, i wouldn't know what the bright side is if i haven't step into the dark side to look at things from afar.

A friend once told me "You do not go to church to find answers, you are there to worship and give thanks". Another friend told me, "Church teaches people how to have faith in God". And just now my mom told me " Go to church to build a relationship with God, then God will show you".

My usual thought was to go to church and find answers. Very wrong. Not having enough faith in God. Very very wrong. Lost my relationship with God all because of i've crossed the forbidden side. So wrong. Was tempted and i gave in to temptation. Which is another absolutely wrong thing to do.

Has my thinking change?!?! From what i have gone through...yes, definitely change and my vision on things is slightly clearer. But there's more to learn from here...

Subject: FLIRTING

"Why would you want to flirt or fool around when you're in a relationship,
might as well, don't be in one,
if you're thinking of flirting or fooling around"
It beats the purpose of being in a relationship.

This is what a friend told me whilst we were doing some catch ups. You are right, thank you for clearing my head as it has always been HAZY on this subject for the past few years.

What does flirting means?

1. Definition: Behave as if trying to attract someone sexually but without serious intentions
2. Definition: (flirt with) show a casual interest in.

My theory on Flirting comes in 2. #1 Flirting with intentions, which suits the definition from the above. #2 Flirting without intentions, you talk but it somehow accidentally attracted the opposite sex which wasn't supposed to happen (or it could be not considered flirting, just crap).

Now, don't get me wrong here, i don't like my partner to flirt neither i would when i'm in a relationship. Has always been against it, as flirting opens a gap of opportunity for others to intrude the relationship. Here's the story, my previous partner was a flirter, i knew he was one as i met him and caught up with him in a wrong place. But, the place i met him didn't tell me that he is one. It's the things he says(sweet talker). I admit, it was against my principle to fall for someone whom i met in a club. And so, i've met the consequences of it. Nevertheless, during the relationship, as much as i want to believe that he is not one, i was just being denial to the max. Which leads me through a lot of pain. It's true though, when they say, the closer you get to something, the tougher it is to see. I was just too blind and denial to face the truth. As i want to believe he is the person whom i wish he was.

Turns out nah!! He wasn't and never was. Had a very good lesson, but was it learned?, it has yet to be reveal. Sometimes, it made me think that flirting was in his blood or something, because through my observation, his dad too is like him. I look up to his mother very highly as she can stand the fact that her husband is flirting right in front of her very naked eyes. Imagine how many years they have been together. I would have gone crazy. Why am i writing this again? Seriously, i want to get it out from my heart and brain as it has been stuck there for quite sometime. Clogging my thoughts and feelings, confusing me on what's right and what's wrong. I've been in a state of confusion for too long over this matter.

Questions are like these...Is it alright to flirt? If it's not, why is he doing it? And somehow, it leads to What does Flirting means anyway?.... So, now you know.

To wrap this up...i believe flirting is very wrong when you're in a relationship. Think of your partner's feeling, if he/she would to do that to you, what or how would you feel? And....flirting will only leads to more disasters as one is attracting the attention of another because of what?You don't do it for fun. There's a purpose to it Biatch!. Which i must say, IT'S PERFECTLY WRONG!! and it's not okay. Saying that one will flirt lesser would never help either as it is WRONG WRONG WRONG! How stupid is that. Flirt lesser. Makes ZERO sense at all! You want a great relationship and things to work out, fooling and flirting is not the answer to it. Being faithful, loyal, honest and sincere is the key to it.

Closer

You've gotta be extra careful with
The things that are close and dearest to you
You know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it
Explain to me all your happiness
That you just experienced by my side
Or maybe you're so blessed in ways that
You can't even remember it all
That you are standing here with me
That you live and breathe and see and feel
They're all little miracles and wonder
Just by themselves.
You've gotta be extra careful with
The things that are close and dearest to you
You know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it
You know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it
And I'll never take it for granted
It's fine to say "Never give up"
Say "Keep chasing your dreams on"
But the more time you spend talking big
The less you get done with life
I'll let that handful of courage in my heart
Help me survive another day
And I'll never take it for granted
Let's go!

Quoted: OEJ EUONI

Lost in translation

I wish there was someone who understands my feeling,
understand what i'm going through,
help me out and be there for me,
be my shelter when it's raining,
be my tree and shade me when the sun is shining,
be my telescope to show me the blinking stars,
be my angel to protect me,
Unfortunately, no one can be that shining star.
As much as i want to, i, myself neither couldn't even perform what i've just said.
Lost between reality and fantasy.
Once again, i'm lost.
As my soul has not return to me.
Have never learned my lesson even hitting the ground once.
Knowing that it will counter me back instead.
Why do i still risk playing it,
When the consequences of it is so obvious,
Feeling jaded.
I've lost the game.
Who am i to blame?
Only myself.

A Getaway from Auckland city

What's new?...mmm...let's see...i just got to know that my convocation date has change to middle of February..which is one of the most amazing thing has ever happened...to me that is....after that i called up my dad and mom to tell them about it and also my best friend...whilst i was talking to her she suddenly took her mic up and put it up on her eyes...this is one of the weirdest behaviour i've ever seen and it's super funny..check this out...

Shhh...i secretly took her pic...muahahaha



Aiyor...yor...apa ni?!?! i really dont know what is she trying to do but its damn funny....she put the mic at her eyes there as if her eyes were talking to it...And yes say HELLO to my new credit card and eftpos card..look so much nicer than the previous ones tht i had..

Latest..
Previous....
See the difference....one more vibrant than the other one...Tehee!!but i like Westpac's Eftpos card tho..cuter!!Aaah...i was away for the weekend to some nice beach...relaxing and having fun...just purely FUN and away from the city.....While on the way to Corramendel, Grace had to stop a few times because of my Car Sick...so sorry guys..well at least we got nice shots of the sceneries right!?!?or mayb not~~

I know i look kinda hideous with the car sick face LOL...
The beach..mmm i didn't take much pic of myself..was damn lazy

Another one of my ugly moments of camwhoring..


Last days in Corramendal....

The Chef and Baker...
Yup....tht's my getaway from Auckland city with a bunch of people....nice people...i enjoyed the trip very much...i've not been happier in Auckland without u all..thank you for the trip...and again so sorry about the car sick...!!

Plansss...planssss..plansssssaaa!!!

Results are out...not what i wanted them to be but anyhow, i manage to pass everything..So, this means say good bye to study life for the rest of my life, unless..... if i want to pursue a higher level which would not happen anytime soon..So tired of studying already..Now, take a breath and enjoy the view...after awhile, this town is fuggin boring man!! Due to my poor performance for the final semester in Uni, i've decided to make a "to do list" to improve myself. No point of looking back on what i should have done to improve my studies now aye! I only know that i was tired of studying ever since last year, but oh well..time to look into the future. This is what i've come up with:

My so called "FUTURE Self-IMPROVEMENT PLAN"

1. Reflective writing (1 month once)
• This is to make one realize what has happen and take everything that's been gained into account. Also, to learn how to appreciate things in life.

1. Take Note
• Take down everything i can. Especially while working. Buy a nice lil note pad for myself and encourage myself more to take down all informations. This is because i have a gold fish memory *sad*

1. Never stop learning
• If uncertain with things, it should be cleared by asking despite being fugged. "Better safe than sorry". Old boss told me "No questions are wrong". This is one way ticket for self improvement .
2. Reminder (of positive things)

• Falling doesn't mean you're loosing forever. If a person do not fall, how shall that person knows how to climb back up on his/her feet again? Everybody learns through mistakes, that's how one learns to be a better person through mistakes. "Nobody is perfect". Tough i know!!People will only grow through tough times. Hardened one's heart and to be even more wicked muahahaha!! (joking ok!)
• Don't care how others look at you. This will only leads to self-disruption. The world has too many angles to see things, that's why there's no one dead point of view.
• Always be alert around you.
• Do not take things for granted.
• Nothing is easy in life. It always has to start from square one to reach the end. So, Don't be lazy. It's time to work hard to foresee a secure future.
• Vision is always healthy. Lessen you from side tracking.

Lastly, health plays apart as well. Well, it's all stated up there any suggestions please feel free to drop in and lemme know. Maybe i can add it up into my future account.

My random thoughts

Exams over for more than a week now...and i'll be getting my results by tomorrow...i shud be happy about it but rather i'm anxious and worried because i didnt perform well for one of my subjects...And its getting more and more boring over here now..there's another 4 more months to go before i can apparently leave this place for good..i cannot imagine how am i going to go through x'mas, new year's eve, CNY alone..plus Valentine's day...well' Valentine's day its fine not everybody has someone to spend it so it doesnt bother me much...but the rest i'd say its a pretty much needa get together kinda thing.

Last year's Christmas was abit dull i would say...was an indoor celebration. As for new year's eve, it was a disaster. This year's Christmas and new year's eve would be definitely different from what i used to have back in K.L. but then hmm....i can't seem to feel the joy of it..They say the people whom u spent time with are the ones that really counts and not the place and now i totally agree to what they said as i used to disagree. I used to think that places matters when u want an unforgettable memory with the people you spend with...CNY i dun mind working and not celebrating it..

Another 4 more months to go....i really cant wait to get out of Auckland....im wondering whether would i miss Auckland once i touch down K.L? i would miss the weather here tht's one thing for sure..the life i have in Auckland?!?! i doubt so.... It's been 10 months now i've been here in Auckland. Did i really learn anything here...i would say yes i did..i am glad to get out of M'sia for once and experience life in another country but sadly, i have to sacrifice somethings in order to pursue my dreams..calling me selfish? i admit...i am in a way...And i believe everybody is selfish in their own ways its a matter of to what certain extent your selfishness goes..They say in order to achieve what one wants, one has to sacrifice other things in life to reach it...I totally agree eventhough everybody wants to keep everything with them. Although New Zealand was never my ideal place to be, well, at least i get to experience life outside of my country.

At first, i thought i would be strong and will be able to handle what ever obstacle because this is what i wanted all along..Fact is different...things get tougher here...wasn't easy to adapt to a new life as i was so comfortable with the old life. Getting to know new people wasn't as easy as you think. Afraid of discrimination, how would people look at you and so on. My level of confidence was never high enough, it is always at the lowest bar, i can only talk to people whom i felt comfortable with otherwise i'll just keep my mouth shut. While being here, i am lack of motivation to even get up from bed to start my day. Dragging myself from bed is one, dragging myself out of the house is second and to walk up the freakin hill is third. My initial plan was to stay here and get a job after my graduation...from what i see now...i don't think i would wanna spend my days here struggle every morning to get to work..trying to find meanings to having a life here.

I have big dreams...dreams of getting out from homeland and work in other people's country. Experiencing life where somewhere the grass is greener on the other side of the world. Unfortunately, my heart wants to stay with the people whom i cherish very much. A friend once told me, not everybody wants to go out to the world and explore leaving their loves ones behind..it all depends on individuals whether is it worth it or not..I now come to realize that after landing here for some time. Before, i was wondering why would anyone give up such an opportunity to explore other places?.....i guess it was only me who didn't understand the meaning of life.

i LoVe yOu

You see the world is out there,
waiting for me,
that's why i wanna be as free as can be,
i know that you've been good,
and you've sweet,
So don't put up a fight,
just let it be,
Well, i hope one day while i'm missin you,
and so will you be thinking of me,
and we can be together,
to laugh about the past
But the love is still there for you and me.....

Quoted: uOy eVoL i yb NeHc nOsiDe

A stroll down the blissful memory lane with me

Today, Jelly woke me up for exams shouting "Last day of Uni, wake up....wake up!!" my eyes was struggling to open coz i slept for 2 hours before exam starts...then feelings starts flowing through...yes bringing back the last days of high skewl feelings where u know that once u grad u would never go back to those life where DRAMAs, GOssIPs, StuPiDTy and LaUGHters with the group of girlfriends you were with will never happen after graduating from high skewl. No more committing skewl crimes with girlfriends and run away with it..the thrill feeling of like running away from teachers and prefects is not going to happen anymore, where days like that can only happen in high skewl.

Frankly speaking, i do miss high skewl times. Not that i love my skewl, the education or the teachers, is the life i have with the group of friends that i have met and other people as well. There were a lot of dope events going on actually..dope as in shitty events hahaha!!....i wouldn't say that i am proud of myself today because of my doings in the past. I regretted taking my education for granted and has made me what i am today. Struggling in everything i do and leads me to working extra harder to achieve what i want. This is a wish where everybody would want i think. That is to go back to the past and correct the mistakes you done. If i was given that wish, i would play hard and taken my studies into account as well. I didn't regret doing shitty things in skewl. I regretted taking my education for granted that's all and not exercising enough to get my ideal body figure LOL!!

This same feeling of unable to let go of what i have and to proceed the road in front of me takes me over when i was about to leave college and as well parting with a newly met colleague during internship. Appreciating life in college with the people I've met and the work that we do will never take place again ever with the same bunch of people. Rather living life regretfully, i try to appreciate what ever events during with them and laugh about it later on. Same goes for high skewl life as well.

Last few weeks ago, my long lost elementary skewl friend found me in FB and we started to connect back. One thing i notice about her, she's always saying how grateful she is for things that has happened to her although it was not as what she wanted. The word of being "Grateful" has never crossed my mind unless it's for my education achievements as i know i am never good at it. Other things in life that has happen to me, i was never grateful. I never took one second to realize how to appreciate things that i have with me. As she reminded me to be grateful with whatever things that has happen although is not the way u wanted it to be like. I stop to think again, i only appreciated the good friends i have made. As for other things, it never goes as i wanted it to so that's why i never appreciate or being grateful about it even though things are better than anyone else.

My reflective biography

Falling and breaking down,
This is what happens to me,
I shut myself away from everybody,
Trying hard to be completely oblivious about what's going around me,
I build walls surrounding me as i thought it'll protect me,
This is my reflection,
It was my greatest stupidity for shutting myself away from the world,
I've missed out a lot,
While others are evolving,
stuck in time,
Lost and stranded,
Hoping someone would come and save me,
To my realization,
Only you can help yourself,
Time and patience is what's all about,
Easy said then done,
I was so caught up with myself until i neglect others,
I'd admit that i am not strong,
And i am ashamed of not being one myself.

A thOught

But because there are things that are pulling me back,
OTHERWISE
I would go to the end of the world shouting how much 143,
and show you how much you meant to me.
You deserve better.
And i would like to prove it to you.

The little things in life

Slow down and look around you,
It's been long since I've actually slow down and look around me,
Looking back at the pictures we've took,
i didn't realize we were so funny looking like an ASS!,
But i'm lovin it every moment spent with you all,
I'm missing you all once again!

An apology note

I woke up at 7 a.m. just to find myself getting all heated up because:

We're repeating things again!!
I ran out of solutions to fix things
I didn't know you were only asking
I wouldn't know we'll end up like this

Just to let u know i really do appreciate you always, you never bail out on me whenever there's things troubling me. You always stay by me even though its just some stupid assignments.

It was never your wrong to start off with
And i do think you're the best any girls can have
When i say thank you i really mean it

My friends plays apart but they are different from you and you should know it. That's what makes you so important to me.

I am truly SORRY for my actions and the way i spoke to you

+ wondney +

Obsession

There was one point in my life, where i was OBSESS with:

When i was younger...(Americans)

When i was a teenage..(Japanese)

When i was a freshman...(Hongkies)


And when i was in the middle of freshman...(Koreans)

And after watching Ratatoueille...(Not French mice but Paris itself)


But sadly, no matter how much you wanna be like them...it's impossible..on the other hand for Paris...i am still trying to save up and head there a.s.a.p.......before i loose my passion =P

Midnight rendezvous at Dv8

My last week for mid-term break on weekends, this is how was celebrated in a way =.=" ..... i dunno what the hell was DV8...they say it's a one year once Asian event gathering which make it sound like a jaw dropping freaking huge thing like a rave or something.....and my! what am i for a surprise!


I attended the so called "RAVE" late...and I was expecting so much from it something like an open air rave coz they said it's a massive huge event for Asians and a one year once thingy...kinda got me into imagining "Zoukfest" and this is what i get...@__@ *disappointed & speechless*

To me, it's another POPPY session over here like back in K.L.with a majority of Chinese coming from different continents and a minority of Caucasian which i don't know where they are from..

My 1 min of camwhore session in the WC in DV8


The bench warmers..





The Aftermath of Jourdan Tan Han Kee



To start off my next day routine after the so called "RAVE" and indulge back into my assignment..I use energy drink "V"..shouldn't have start using energy drink to sustain myself in enduring work load...but then once u tried u can't stop seriously works better than coffee but damaging your health like more than twice..people please avoid energy drink!!

*mmm..taste like Ribena*



Advice from an energy drinker =.=" [say NO to energy drink]

Another mid-term break post

This week's update.....

I finally received my credit card and my Westpac Eftpos card and on top of that i got myself my all time favorite Crystal star...but wasn't acquired using my Visa..so my Visa is still a Virgin LOL!! same goes for my Westpac Eftpos card as well.


Look at this piece of crap here...i bought it because i thought it is really less fattening....and to my surprise.......whenever i eat it, it gives me diarrhea..it's helping =D

END......

September Babies and my!my!...what a night!

It's my mid-term break again!!What have i been doing? well, i've planned out somethings like homework and working out on my art skills for someone special..considered sweet and boring?!?!..anything new u asked? nope, not until yesterday that is =P..

Guess what..upon celebrating my house mate's birthday, his friends has planned a surprise gift for him..well, indeed i must say it's a very surprising one!!coz i myself was in for a surprise as well..everybody who celebrated with him chipped in some $$ for this lil 21st bday boy to get laid..not literally laid but LOL u get what i mean..so went to a strip club in Auckland...didn't get to take pictures coz wasn't allowed to..here enjoy the story from the pics that i have...It all started with a nice evening dinner..OH..not to mention my dinner was free not because of someone who's generous enough but because the lamb was literally RAW man!!i think they're trying to kill me -___-"


I know i'm fat so don't need to mention it =D..i was sitting in between these two groups of ppl so i got a shot of not exactly a stretch of of tables with ppl but separately....


You look absolutely fine Grace!!

This is the WWF RAW lamb that i have ate half of it..disgusting u say! i know @_@

Yes, another camwhoring picture of me in the WC of the strip club!! hey i was boring okay...the rest were like whoa!! here and there..tell u the truth i feel abit awkward actually looking at grls naked and putting their jugs on guy's face and the money we chipped in, we bought him a striper to play pool with him NAKEDLY...so, everybody was in the room watching him playing pool stripping his clothes off except for his pants coz it was the strip house rules...it was an eye opening..at least i know what it looks like now!! i strictly BAND strip clubs, whores now...!!no man of mine is going to any of these places.... for real!

Here are the few strippers who are off duty...

And this is the $2 dollar note from the strip house i got it from...Yes, they have their own money inside there!!



Aaaand to end this post, i would like to take the opportunity to wish a few 8pohs of mine and a friend HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! May all wishes of yours comes true for this year's birthday and may u be bless by the people around you.....xoxoxo


Here they are:

MANDY C. (right hand side)

Hui Lian, Zoe (left hand side)

Jelly a.k.a CHris


Thanks for reading...until next time..u know u love me xoxoxo (i know wtf!!im following Gossip girls now LOL!!)

mE fReeDom of sPeeCh!!

I was late for IMC class this week because of trying to finish the imc assignment work till the break of dawn...my IMC lecturer is a very nice old man he didn't deduct my marks for it tehee!!....can imagine aye now he's like a grandfather-ish look...i like listening to him teaching it's like listening to grandfather stories...funny o'man reminds me of my cheeky dad!!

Anyways, he was showing us documentaries about communication technology...one of the videos was about Malaysia...when the great Mahathir was ruling...he was the one who actually encourage technologies to wanna turn Malaysia into a 1st world country instead of letting aliens thinking that we still sleep on trees..

So, this is why he set a vision by year 2020 Malaysia will then be able to compete with the other 1st world 2nd world or third world countries. Now, don't get me wrong here, I'm really not into politics seriously....but looking at my own country now really disappoint me. I fully respect our once great prime minister who'd actually change paria M'sia to the now M'sia with high tall KLCC although it's a 5 mins of fame thing..After Mahathir retired and he was just u know trying to give advice on how to make M'sia an even a greater country..guess what? some politicians asked him to shut up n just stay retired n not have any business in the politic field..Hey..he should be respected and acknowledged in any way for his hard work in bringing M'sia up. Plus he has experience and he's a very knowledgeable man.

And what about the new prime minister? well, changing the vision that has been set to something else...CONFUSING people by being inconsistent with the message that he is sending out..

It's good now since Anwar is stepping in...i fully support him in becoming the next prime minister for M'sia..well, so far that's what i think coz he's the best candidate and wiser than the other choices in the list..And stop accusing him for sodomy...that's so boring AND so obvious that he was set up!!duh!! All in favor Anwar is the best choice...Hopefully M'sia will be in good hands when he rules....But seriously if the society have a choice...i bet everyone would want back our once great prime minister "Mahathir" my man!! he totally rocks!!


pEacE ya'll....

Biased

Yes, another screwed up for my layout dun ask me why... i'm still trying to figure it out...now is obviously a FUGLY blog....anyway, will fix it later!!

As i was just doing some catch up with my ex bf's friend, we were talking about how we are and well...did some history chatting about me and my ex...turns out not pretty people!!...there was this slight heated argument between me and him about my ex..true enough and it's plain to see the friends will always be standing by your own friend defending them...Now, calm down here....i truly understand that how people can be biased and it's just human nature because i can tell you that i am one of them too!!

Don't blame him for being like that, but you have only listened to one party...what about the other party then?!?! Isn't it sad to not actually know the whole story instead of knowing part of it...He gets to say and she doesn't gets to....Tragic yes indeed i agreed with u all the way down...

A moment in time

Sorry was screwing up with my layouts and all to get a better something out of it..guess it didn't worked out and later on got so tired of it so i stop playing with it so it's all UGLY now!!....NEXT STEP...is to re-position my whole blog to show u people "it's me" have to be a lil bit into myself aye~ planning ppl planning...any nice goodie ideas just drop into my comment box....SHIENGZ you are one of them to needa help me to re-position my blog!! You inspire me muahahaha!!wtf

Anyway, yesterday was an ecstatic night for me...my 8pohs called me up and txt me as well...i even get to see how my best friend look like after months and months without contacting her and our chemistry is vague...We even get to webcam together...like finally!! haha

They were having a farewell party in Chee How's place for Chee How like duh!..Damn that guy is finally leaving for London, UK...isn't that great staying with Weili 8poh....i wonder when is he going to graduate aye..hey i might come visit you guys next year just make sure there's space for me to bunk with u guys K!!!...Seeing everybody was having a great time and at the same time has the heart to web me up in msn melts my heart real bad.....And not to mention looking at them evolving each time i see them, gives me even more reasons to work my ass off to show them i'm changing too.

8poh Bird-bird didn't join them but she called my cell phone..."hey it's expensive for your bills but i appreciate it very much so just u know" muaXxx....Sweet i get to know things that i haven't know yet..Hey 8poh cb Lian..going to Paris and London for your birthday aren't you lucky and with a paid trip...i'm happy for you!!Is my dream trip u know T_T....Have a wicked trip over there aye

Oooh..and Lebih Jene changing her career to a stewardess....i didn't know that either...worked hard babe and i love your new hairstyle...something new from you! make sure u work ur ass off so dat next time we go for trips u can get us huge discounts hahaha!!

hrmphh.....i didn't see ffur though where is she?!?!Mun lye looks pretty without her boom hair LOL...same o' lian jumping one side to another...really when i see her so reminded me of Paul Frank hahaha...pls dun kill me...smelly mouth n hair wasn't there either guess he's having war with ffur downstairs TOO BZ or either they didn't turn up for the party..hahaha

I'm soooo happy to see you guys....make me soooo wanna come home you Biatches!!but have to wait till next year only get to tin jui with u all sigh~ but i do know you guys are waiting for me haha *perasan* i miss bbq times, i miss steamboat times, i miss drinkin times, i miss clubbing times, i miss shopping times, i miss wasting times, i miss tripping times, i miss doink times, i miss working times,i miss togetherness times and most of all i miss all of you..

I'll be back so wait up!!....Love you guys millionz and zillions u too weili xoxoxoxo

Ass a marketing communication student

Having obtained a diploma in advertising and marketing communications, i think i'm one of the worse student of all...simple messages that i want to convey out to anybody in a simple conversation it's always failure to do so..i find it that it is one of my main flaws and a very terrible one as well. Even since from young i find it hard to get my message across to others but yet i'm a communication student...What irony!!

The most basic and vital thing that every human does but yet most of us have difficulties in that area. Especially in expressing one's feeling is the hardest thing to do. Unfortunately mine is a different story. I can't seem to deliver what my mind speaks...as in into correct words and sentence and to actually speak out coherently when the idea is there....One more thing...bad habit...always loose words in my mind and worse when it comes to presentation..DAMN!! words are freaking missing as usual!!it's like wtf right?!?!

What i fear now is my future with my flaws...Flaws like this aren't minor flaws..Flaws like this are really big and it matters because it will effect my future job opportunities and even careers as well. It is a shame to even claimed that i'm a communication student and to even have a dream in wanting to be in brand management for one of my main career.

Pointless

No point of missing someone who doesn't miss you anymore,
No point of fixing something you screwed up when that person does not acknowledge what you are fixing,
No point of trying since it was said fucked it,
No point of even include them in your future planning when they scrape you off from theirs,
No point of being emo because of them,
No point of findin excuses to stay,
No point of finding reasons to give up,
No point of hoping,
No point of being confuse,
No point to even feel for it...

Here we gO!!

A brief introduction:

Yes, it sorta take a lil longer than i thought to blog something up..which eum it depends on do i have the time or not..anyway here's it...My NZ story begins here with a lil sprinkle of sad dust on it...i didnt get to take any pics when i arrive coz i was freaking exhausted didnt sleep well in the plane i was fucking hot, the aircondition was down at tht time..talk abt service huh from MAS!!imagine 10 hours in the small seat without aircond,and i ordered a white wine just to get myself to sleep in the flight, it's even worse when i told the stewardess tht i want a glass of wine, she was asking me twice just to confirmed "white wine?" looking at me as if i'm still underage -_-"..so, as i landed in Auckland, my back started to break..(too exegerated)haha..well, it feels like it though with lotsa hand carries..

Anyhow cut the story short check my Uni out for orientation skewl of business...

The Orientation Day was super happening compared to what i have back in college..they have games, free lunch, a drink with a dessert which i didnt take a pic of it but anyway check this out..

A lil bit of close up..

Yeap..dat sorta rapz up about my uni...well, more stupid stories to come but not now it's 4.35 a.m. can't crap now i'm now drifting in n out from my consciousness already..until next time i'll tell you abt my apartment yAh =D niteZzzz peepSss!!

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To Start Off

Yello ppl!!...this is my fuggin new blog...For now it's abit late to think of something to blog will come back to you like mayb tommorow...Just lemme collect me stuff for u guys to see aiight nitez!!

ciaoZ

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