This few weeks, we've been talking.........
It all started from last December 2009, New Years Day..i guess both of us are going through the same feeling. The feeling of being lonesome. Her family had move to Perth leaving her and her younger brother alone. Meanwhile, me, go figure out what to do with my life in Auckland. To stay or leave?
I remember clearly back in the days where we used to call each other's house phone and chat all day or all night even though we'll be seeing each other later in class. We tuition together, we recessed together, and we hang out together a lot. If u ask me do i miss the old days just hanging with her alone, i do. And now, we have come to a point where we need to use technologies such as online chat box to see each other and talk to each other as well. Not to mention using social networks to keep track with their lives. How things had change over the years, but at least i still have you. A blink of an eye, its 2009 already. Somehow to me, 2007 was just like yesterday. That's when i lost myself, thought that by maybe coming here, i will find my soul back quickly. Fact is, i used one whole year to search back the ME and bring myself back alive again.
Yes, what you said it's true. You have always been protecting others. While i want to tell you, if i'm back there with you and the rest of them, i will like to take the opportunity to build you a new set of walls, sending my troops of army to defend your insecurities. Anyhow, no matter what happens, i've got your back. Even if you condemn me i would never leave your side as i know you are a true friend who's worth going for the extra miles. Yesterdays' conversation between you and me was awesome. It's been such a long time since i've heard you laugh like a mad person. I miss your hysterical laughter. It reminds me of us doing stupid things with the rest of the babes.
The incident that left us both being apart, i am sorry for not being able to be there to console you when you needed someone. And it is not that i don't want to let you into my disturbing world. It's just that i too care for you too much not to let you in. I didn't know it would end up hurting both of us by doing what i did. But i now learned that is ok to show you my fears as i have a friend that would look out for me, that will lend me a hand to pull me up from drowning.
As for the rest, i have not forget you all, not even once. Even when i'm here i was constantly dreaming of you all every night for the past first 6 to 8 months. And it is so nice to hear HL & PS voice last 2 days in HOHO. Come to think of it, we've been together for 10 years now. How can i live without the memories of us all. I shall say that all of you are my motivators in doing everything, this include Wei Li as well. I wish i can be home with you all, but seeing everyone of you working on your careers, drives me to think i should too do what i should to make you all proud and not always worried about me. I know i can be naive and hard headed. I would like to show you all the new me when i return. I am waiting for our next trip, anywhere will do as long as all of us are present in that trip.
Last but not least, Shieng you're another good friend i've found. I'm glad we sticked together in college days. And even we're far apart during Uni days which we're suppose to be together, at least we still keep contact and i feel our friendship bonding is stronger. Hope to see you soon, i wanna bunk with you like how i used to mwahh!!
To: SLKY
If we're destined to be with each other, we will be. As we would not know what the future brings, this is for the best even though its heart breaking . I would never forget what you have done and the memories will be preserved in a treasure box within my system. You will always be cherish.
I EVOL you all very much....
