A Getaway from Auckland city

What's new?...mmm...let's see...i just got to know that my convocation date has change to middle of February..which is one of the most amazing thing has ever happened...to me that is....after that i called up my dad and mom to tell them about it and also my best friend...whilst i was talking to her she suddenly took her mic up and put it up on her eyes...this is one of the weirdest behaviour i've ever seen and it's super funny..check this out...

Shhh...i secretly took her pic...muahahaha



Aiyor...yor...apa ni?!?! i really dont know what is she trying to do but its damn funny....she put the mic at her eyes there as if her eyes were talking to it...And yes say HELLO to my new credit card and eftpos card..look so much nicer than the previous ones tht i had..

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See the difference....one more vibrant than the other one...Tehee!!but i like Westpac's Eftpos card tho..cuter!!Aaah...i was away for the weekend to some nice beach...relaxing and having fun...just purely FUN and away from the city.....While on the way to Corramendel, Grace had to stop a few times because of my Car Sick...so sorry guys..well at least we got nice shots of the sceneries right!?!?or mayb not~~

I know i look kinda hideous with the car sick face LOL...
The beach..mmm i didn't take much pic of myself..was damn lazy

Another one of my ugly moments of camwhoring..


Last days in Corramendal....

The Chef and Baker...
Yup....tht's my getaway from Auckland city with a bunch of people....nice people...i enjoyed the trip very much...i've not been happier in Auckland without u all..thank you for the trip...and again so sorry about the car sick...!!

Plansss...planssss..plansssssaaa!!!

Results are out...not what i wanted them to be but anyhow, i manage to pass everything..So, this means say good bye to study life for the rest of my life, unless..... if i want to pursue a higher level which would not happen anytime soon..So tired of studying already..Now, take a breath and enjoy the view...after awhile, this town is fuggin boring man!! Due to my poor performance for the final semester in Uni, i've decided to make a "to do list" to improve myself. No point of looking back on what i should have done to improve my studies now aye! I only know that i was tired of studying ever since last year, but oh well..time to look into the future. This is what i've come up with:

My so called "FUTURE Self-IMPROVEMENT PLAN"

1. Reflective writing (1 month once)
• This is to make one realize what has happen and take everything that's been gained into account. Also, to learn how to appreciate things in life.

1. Take Note
• Take down everything i can. Especially while working. Buy a nice lil note pad for myself and encourage myself more to take down all informations. This is because i have a gold fish memory *sad*

1. Never stop learning
• If uncertain with things, it should be cleared by asking despite being fugged. "Better safe than sorry". Old boss told me "No questions are wrong". This is one way ticket for self improvement .
2. Reminder (of positive things)

• Falling doesn't mean you're loosing forever. If a person do not fall, how shall that person knows how to climb back up on his/her feet again? Everybody learns through mistakes, that's how one learns to be a better person through mistakes. "Nobody is perfect". Tough i know!!People will only grow through tough times. Hardened one's heart and to be even more wicked muahahaha!! (joking ok!)
• Don't care how others look at you. This will only leads to self-disruption. The world has too many angles to see things, that's why there's no one dead point of view.
• Always be alert around you.
• Do not take things for granted.
• Nothing is easy in life. It always has to start from square one to reach the end. So, Don't be lazy. It's time to work hard to foresee a secure future.
• Vision is always healthy. Lessen you from side tracking.

Lastly, health plays apart as well. Well, it's all stated up there any suggestions please feel free to drop in and lemme know. Maybe i can add it up into my future account.

My random thoughts

Exams over for more than a week now...and i'll be getting my results by tomorrow...i shud be happy about it but rather i'm anxious and worried because i didnt perform well for one of my subjects...And its getting more and more boring over here now..there's another 4 more months to go before i can apparently leave this place for good..i cannot imagine how am i going to go through x'mas, new year's eve, CNY alone..plus Valentine's day...well' Valentine's day its fine not everybody has someone to spend it so it doesnt bother me much...but the rest i'd say its a pretty much needa get together kinda thing.

Last year's Christmas was abit dull i would say...was an indoor celebration. As for new year's eve, it was a disaster. This year's Christmas and new year's eve would be definitely different from what i used to have back in K.L. but then hmm....i can't seem to feel the joy of it..They say the people whom u spent time with are the ones that really counts and not the place and now i totally agree to what they said as i used to disagree. I used to think that places matters when u want an unforgettable memory with the people you spend with...CNY i dun mind working and not celebrating it..

Another 4 more months to go....i really cant wait to get out of Auckland....im wondering whether would i miss Auckland once i touch down K.L? i would miss the weather here tht's one thing for sure..the life i have in Auckland?!?! i doubt so.... It's been 10 months now i've been here in Auckland. Did i really learn anything here...i would say yes i did..i am glad to get out of M'sia for once and experience life in another country but sadly, i have to sacrifice somethings in order to pursue my dreams..calling me selfish? i admit...i am in a way...And i believe everybody is selfish in their own ways its a matter of to what certain extent your selfishness goes..They say in order to achieve what one wants, one has to sacrifice other things in life to reach it...I totally agree eventhough everybody wants to keep everything with them. Although New Zealand was never my ideal place to be, well, at least i get to experience life outside of my country.

At first, i thought i would be strong and will be able to handle what ever obstacle because this is what i wanted all along..Fact is different...things get tougher here...wasn't easy to adapt to a new life as i was so comfortable with the old life. Getting to know new people wasn't as easy as you think. Afraid of discrimination, how would people look at you and so on. My level of confidence was never high enough, it is always at the lowest bar, i can only talk to people whom i felt comfortable with otherwise i'll just keep my mouth shut. While being here, i am lack of motivation to even get up from bed to start my day. Dragging myself from bed is one, dragging myself out of the house is second and to walk up the freakin hill is third. My initial plan was to stay here and get a job after my graduation...from what i see now...i don't think i would wanna spend my days here struggle every morning to get to work..trying to find meanings to having a life here.

I have big dreams...dreams of getting out from homeland and work in other people's country. Experiencing life where somewhere the grass is greener on the other side of the world. Unfortunately, my heart wants to stay with the people whom i cherish very much. A friend once told me, not everybody wants to go out to the world and explore leaving their loves ones behind..it all depends on individuals whether is it worth it or not..I now come to realize that after landing here for some time. Before, i was wondering why would anyone give up such an opportunity to explore other places?.....i guess it was only me who didn't understand the meaning of life.

i LoVe yOu

You see the world is out there,
waiting for me,
that's why i wanna be as free as can be,
i know that you've been good,
and you've sweet,
So don't put up a fight,
just let it be,
Well, i hope one day while i'm missin you,
and so will you be thinking of me,
and we can be together,
to laugh about the past
But the love is still there for you and me.....

Quoted: uOy eVoL i yb NeHc nOsiDe

A stroll down the blissful memory lane with me

Today, Jelly woke me up for exams shouting "Last day of Uni, wake up....wake up!!" my eyes was struggling to open coz i slept for 2 hours before exam starts...then feelings starts flowing through...yes bringing back the last days of high skewl feelings where u know that once u grad u would never go back to those life where DRAMAs, GOssIPs, StuPiDTy and LaUGHters with the group of girlfriends you were with will never happen after graduating from high skewl. No more committing skewl crimes with girlfriends and run away with it..the thrill feeling of like running away from teachers and prefects is not going to happen anymore, where days like that can only happen in high skewl.

Frankly speaking, i do miss high skewl times. Not that i love my skewl, the education or the teachers, is the life i have with the group of friends that i have met and other people as well. There were a lot of dope events going on actually..dope as in shitty events hahaha!!....i wouldn't say that i am proud of myself today because of my doings in the past. I regretted taking my education for granted and has made me what i am today. Struggling in everything i do and leads me to working extra harder to achieve what i want. This is a wish where everybody would want i think. That is to go back to the past and correct the mistakes you done. If i was given that wish, i would play hard and taken my studies into account as well. I didn't regret doing shitty things in skewl. I regretted taking my education for granted that's all and not exercising enough to get my ideal body figure LOL!!

This same feeling of unable to let go of what i have and to proceed the road in front of me takes me over when i was about to leave college and as well parting with a newly met colleague during internship. Appreciating life in college with the people I've met and the work that we do will never take place again ever with the same bunch of people. Rather living life regretfully, i try to appreciate what ever events during with them and laugh about it later on. Same goes for high skewl life as well.

Last few weeks ago, my long lost elementary skewl friend found me in FB and we started to connect back. One thing i notice about her, she's always saying how grateful she is for things that has happened to her although it was not as what she wanted. The word of being "Grateful" has never crossed my mind unless it's for my education achievements as i know i am never good at it. Other things in life that has happen to me, i was never grateful. I never took one second to realize how to appreciate things that i have with me. As she reminded me to be grateful with whatever things that has happen although is not the way u wanted it to be like. I stop to think again, i only appreciated the good friends i have made. As for other things, it never goes as i wanted it to so that's why i never appreciate or being grateful about it even though things are better than anyone else.